I rarely make resolutions. No one bothers to keep them anyway. They are silly little things we tell ourselves to make us feel better. And then find a way to fuck it up anyway. BUT having said that, I will try to write more. It is truly the one thing I love and people still stumble upon my blog from time to time and enjoy the few minutes they spend here. So I might as well try to write more. I would love to strive to write every single day. BUT I also know how I am. If nothing tickles my fancy, then I just won’t write. I’m a bitch like that. I need to be inspired. I know….! I need myself a muse. Anybody want to be my blog muse? That would be a first.
My birthday is in a couple of days. And every single year I make the same wish when blowing out the candles. Like a sorry six-year-old I hope that the wish will come true. And it never does. I haven’t decided if I will wish for the same thing this year (that is if anyone gets me a cake) or if I should just throw the damn candle right out the door. Alas, I will probably wish for the same thing and hope all year that it will come true. That’s what I did all of last year and 2011 sucked. So you better be a stellar year 2012!! Or else!
I was lucky enough to spend the last day of 2011 alone. (read: sarcasm and hurt) And be told by someone that I have a terrible personality and that I should really do something about it.
I may not have the greatest of personalities. But I certainly do not think it’s terrible. But see, this is why my self-esteem is in the gutter: People freely tell me how they feel about me and I get hurt. And I wonder, why do they feel that way? When I honest to GOD, don’t think my personality is terrible. I think I am honest to a fault and people cannot handle my expressing myself. I don’t know. But when told things like that, it makes me want to curl up in my hole some more and never come out. I’m sure one day if they ever have a sister show for Hoarders that is “Agoraphobics”, you’ll certainly find me on that show. I may never leave my house again! Why subject people to my terrible personality? Not even an attitude. Jesus. My whole personality sucks I guess. I apologize to everyone for my terrible personality.
Thank you to all that read xojmo throughout last year. I hope you come sniffing around again this year. I promise I will try to write more. I would love suggestions or random ideas. You never know – you may become my muse!
I hope everyone has a fine new year. Yes, just fine. Wouldn’t it be nice if everything was just fine?